Who's that lady?

While I was beginning to lose weight everyone would comment on how great I looked, but I never saw what they were talking about. The numbers on the scale were studly going down & my clothes were getting so big that I was always dropping off bags of clothes to Goodwill, but in my mind I looked the same as I always had. When shopping I still would look for the largest size they had. It's crazy, I would look in the mirror every single day but not even realize how far I had come, my mind just wouldn't let me believe what my eyes saw. In my mind I was still that 260 pound girl.

One day at Walmart Joel and I got away from each other, I watched him walk past me twice then walk up to a heavy set lady who he thought was me. He was so embarrassed that he couldn't tell who his own wife was! On another occasion about 3 weeks ago, we were walking out of Target into the mall when I looked back at Target I caught a glimpse of a girl in the full size mirror that stood in the window. I thought oh she looks good, I love the outfit...then it hit me "Oh my word, that's ME!"

It finally snapped one day when I decided that I was going to be happy with myself & body no matter what. I started this journey to be healthy and that's the most important part. My body was too fat for too long and birthed 3 beautiful children... there will never be perfection or that flat belly and there will always be extra skin and stretch marks. Instead of focusing on what I see as ugly flaws I am going to focus on health.

This morning I weighed in at 149, my lowest weight to date was 138 and I went a little crazy in April and gained 20lbs back, so I am happy to be going back down. In the end my goal is to get to 130-135 range and maintain that weight.