BED...but not the good cuddley kind!

Over the last couple of weeks I have gained that same 10 pounds that I have been fighting since February. Once I get so close to my goal I some how lose track and have a set back. Most of the time its as simple as I get bored, lazy, or just really don't know when to stop.

I have never been told by a doctor, but with the help of a few blogs I read, Wikipedia, and Google I have self diagnosed myself as having BED-Binge Eating Disorder.

Some of the signs of binge eating that I experince are:

• Feels loss of control over eating during binge.
• Eats an unusually large amount of food at one time.
• Eats much more quickly during binge episodes than during normal eating episodes.
• Eats when depressed or bored.
• Eats large amounts of food even when not really hungry.
• Feels disgusted or guilty after binge eating.
• Experiences rapid weight gain
• Is easily irritated.

Some of my triggers are:

• Nutella or peanut butter!
• Stress
• Pizza
• Being bored
• Knowing Joel will not be home for dinner

Today for an example I did really well eating through the day but as soon as I got home form work I ate half a jar of nutella, about 4 pieces of bread, about 4tbs of shredded coconut...thats all I remember I am sure there was more. It all happened in a 6-10minute frame and the only reason I can think of that may have caused this binge (besides my lack of self control) was having to make Joels "lunch" for work. He asked for 2 pb & j sandwiches and while making them for him I just couldn't help but eat.

Blah...I don't know what else to say because I got disgusted when I re-read the above...and for some reason I am craving pizza now!


Tomorrow or the next day I plan to post about my plan to bet my binges. I figure by laying everything out there in black and white I will be more focused and aware of what I need to do to get where I need to be.